Ganesh

Today I stumbled upon this beautiful picture from a religion type book. It illustrated Ganesh in full colour and it said that she is the remover of obstacles.
Don't know a lot about that whole shebang. An indian classmate once tried to explain everything during a couple of gym classes in which I never participated. And she only confused me more. With all those unfamilliar names and connections. But what I do know is that it's about finding balance. Not too much of one thing. And I strongly feel that it's that type of religion where clues and signs that may come on your path have a reason.

I started connecting the dots.

A week ago I was travelling on a train with a very old friend of mine. He was drawing one of his brain spinned alterations on a commercial flyer. And while he so casualy pressed his glasses back towards his eyes while they slowly looked at me, he said: 'Meditation is not something you do to clear your mind and think about nothing. You have it all wrong. It's just the oppossite. You have to meditate on what is most important.'
He may be somewhat younger than me but he is deffinately one of the most clever people I know. And there's a reason why after all these years I started seeing him again. A reason why he told me that, right then and there.

And further..I watch a movie that's all about that kind of stuff. But still, it's fiction. Is any of it real? So I move on. To the library. One of my favorit places on earth. All this knowledge in one place where hiding is allowed. Where you don't have to speak and everyone's the same. A rare place where giving is not necessary but getting is a lovely relief from the world that lies outside.
But I'm drifting away from the point that I want to make...I walk in the library, hiding from the outside and from reality, a book sticks out of a section I normaly want to avoid 'religion'. And the first picture it shows me is the remover of all obstacles, Ganesh. My first thought of desperation was 'Can you remove my obstacles, Ganesh?'
My mind flies back to that movie where they mention that all desperates pray to God and ask for a sign. And how rediculous that is. Now, I feel rediculous. More than I'm used to.
And then and there I came full circle. On that matter anyway.

It is not about what Ganesh can do for me.
It's about seeing that picture and seeing Ganesh...and reminding myself that it can be done. With all those vibrant colours and Ganesh treating herself on golden balls (this may sound strange).

She, in my right mind, popped out of that picture...laughed all giddy, started dancing and skipping. She stopped in front of me, eye to eye, in my personal space. Grabbed me close, wrapping all four of her arms around my body to make me feel safe and whispered in my ear 'If I can, you can'. She rapidly let go, jumped some feet back and presented her sweet delights 'Golden ball?' With a wink she vanished and all there was left was a stuffy old book.